In summary.

fuh!

at last, i finally hv the time, the determination, the stories, the lack of anything else to do, to write my blog... how long has it been? too long, i should say..lets see how this one goes... not sure if my writing skills are as good as they were, assuming that they were good at any point.. huhu.

lets start from way back, shall we? convo performance. it was ok.. nothing special bout it, really. hehe. but the benefits were great! i got food coupons for a week, one week of free food.. huhu. who wudnt want that... good food tastes great, but FREE good food tastes even better.. hehe. whats more is that i got about RM 18 per day worth of coupons. yeah, RM18. dats like two days worth of food coupons for me.. and dats if i eat western food on both days. since the coupons expire when the week ends, it was western for lunch, western for dinner, and if it were possible, probably western for breakfast as well... i rarely eat bfast, even thought some say its the most important meal of the day, i rarely eat it (in utp that is..). but with the coupons, i went and have me one hell of a bfast (compared to the usual plain water..).. huhu. and still, i have extra coupons... even if i were to buy some of my friends dinner, i would still have extra coupons... happy times, happy times. and did i mention im getting paid to perform during the convo? haha. free food, and getting paid. nothing beats that. hehe. oh yeah, not forgetting the main thing, the performance was ok, not bad, although im still doing lots of mistakes.. more practice required..

motorcycle accident. huh. nvr saw this one coming. but i guess if you can predict an accident happening, you wouldnt be calling it an accident... here's how it happened. i was riding my motorcycle that one night, it was dark, didnt really see that the road was quite sandy, so when i went in a corner a wee bit too fast, i braked, and bam! next thing i know, i was on the road sliding to the side.. ouch. at first the shock was overwhelming! i didnt even realised what had just happened. and just my luck, no one was around at the time. so with the shock, and the lack of knowledge on what to do on such an incident, i just yelled out 'tolong!' a couple of times and waited for people to come to the rescue.. haha. quite dumb, i shud say. after realising that no one was there, then i came to my senses... started pushing the motorcycle bit by bit, bcoz i was pinned under the motorcycle, you see, thats why i was just waiting for someone to come, bcoz lets face it, motorcycles arent exactly the lightest things in the world, especially when your feet and hands are bleeding and God knows where else... finally got the motorcycle off, stood up, called up the owner of the motorcycle.. oh yeah, forgot to mention, the motorcycle wasnt mine. double ouch. no reply. called someone else. it was around this time that someone finally came around.. stopped the guy, and asked him to help me pick up the motorcycle, and if possible, send me to a clinic. did i mention im still bleeding here? haha. oh yeah, whats more miraculous is that my handphone still works! yeah, it still works! bcoz the first thing that i noticed after i stopped sliding on the road was that my handphone was sticking out of my pocket, and not from the hole where i slide my hands in, apparently a new hole, made during the sliding process.. huhuhu. sedey giler. but at least it still works, even with all the scratches and cracks... score one for motorola... huhu.

moving on, just as the guy that i stopped was going to give me a lift, out of nowhere, a friend of mine, passed by the area.. completely by chance! well, sort of chance, it just so happens he had to do something and he had to go thru here to get there. the place that i fell down wasnt exactly the busiest of places, but i guess you guys guessed that when i said i yelled help and no one came... so instead of the guy that i stopped, my friend took me to the clinic.. although, i have to say something. the guy that i stopped for help, seemed somewhat reluctant to help me. i mean, if it was him that fell down, and it was me that passed by, i probably wouldnt think twice bout taking him to the clinic.. but he seemed somewhat, unwilling to do so. ah well, some ppl just dont have the moral values that i have.. haha. but i guess im lacking in humility when i say that. and thats bout it, my friend took me to the clinic, where the owner of the motorcyle was already there, the guy that i called after i called him, called someone else to get him... the damage on the motorcycle was minimal, in case you're wondering, becoz my feet was trapped between the road and the motorcycle. ouch, but it sounds a lot worse than it is actually.. i think. huhu. and thats bout it.. had to walk like a robot for a week, hurts like hell, especially when taking a bath... some ppl said "kenapa bagi kena air?! mmg la sakit..." but then, if i didnt let water hit the wound, it wouldnt be clean now, would it?  and thats bout it... nothing much. huhu. although i did learn a very valuable lesson from this. an accident is called an accident, becoz ppl dont plan to do it, it just so happens..... the reason why there's a speed limit on our roads and highways, is bcoz, although u may feel comfortable driving at fast speeds, u may not be able to react once sumthing unexpected happens.. oh yeah, thanks to the friend, achul, that helped me when i was in need, a friend in need, is a friend indeed, as they say, and to all that visited and helped me during my healing period.. your help is greatly appreciated, i only hope that i can repay your kindness someday... and one more thing, never do things that your parents dont approve of, because when they dont approve of it, God wont approve of it either, and something bad's bound to happen.. my parents dont like me riding the riding the motorcycle, but since its the easiest and most convenient mode of transport in the university, i cant really avoid using it.. long story short, i learned my lesson.. the hard way. hehe.

what else.... hmm. let me think. my studies? yeah, i guess i cant talk bout that for a bit. my study sucks these days. ive become ever so lazy nowadays, i barely do anything at all other than relaxing and enjoying myself... and my test & quiz results show it... real bad. im starting to worry if i can repeat last semester's performance, let alone make it better. oh well, we'll see how that one goes.

oh yeah, ive gotten involved in a charity project of sorts. its called khidmat bakti siswa. erm, basically, its like a homestay program, but unlike a homestay program where you pay to stay and have fun, enjoy village life, this homestay, you pay to stay in someones house to do charity work for the village. huhu. as bad as that may sound, it was quite fun. relaxing. well, there were times when i was stressed, partly because i was part of the organizing comittee, partly because i was damn tired at the time, hehe, but, overall it was a fulfilling experience. to actually contribute towards the improvement of something... for example, one of the things we did was clean up the graveyard in that area. the graveyard at first was a total mess. full of grass, weeds, in fact some of the bushes at the place totally covered up some graves. but when we were done with the place, you can totally see the difference. and that brings a sort of satisfaction... unexpected, i must say. honestly, i joined the thing to get a certificate, ive never joined anything since ive been in utp, and of course to do some good, but never thought that doing something good for no reward whatsoever would be fulfilling. huhu. listen to the so-called slacker talking. but as joey from 'friends' once said, "theres no such thing as a selfless good deed". because when you think about it, no matter how selfless an act you commit, you've gotta admit, you still feel good about it afterwards.. example, you give some money to the poor and needy, sure, you lose a couple of bucks for ppl you dont even know, but deep down inside, you're happy that you can help a fellow human being out. so, not exactly selfless. haha.

and thats pretty much it. huhu. one month of my life, in summary. cant write too detailed, the details are quite blurry now, bcoz it took me long enough to write the damn blog. hehe.

lets talk bout some stuff that havent happened, but probably are. my group of friends from pasum are trying to organise a reunion, for the 1000th time. haha. its just that it never really happens, somebody's bound to have something on that date, and so its not exactly a full reunion if not everyone's present. some are just too... whats the word im looking for.... too... for lack of a better word, too full of crap. haha. sorry. i cant find the word im looking for, probably because it doesnt exist. although there is a word for it in bahasa melayu. ngade2. for some itsy bitsy reason, they dont want to come to the reunion. or they just dont give a crap bout meeting up. example, ive asked ppl to meet up with me when i come to kl, lets say a few days in advance, and when the actual day comes, they say im too far away too meet up laa... "siapa suh u dtg" la.... i mean, wtf? i came 300 km from ipoh just to meet you guys (not all, a select few), but you cant travel 20 minutes by lrt to meet me? haha. damn. real nice friends i have. and its the same with this upcoming reunion. ader je mslhnye. nk gerak sama2 la. nk tuka tmpt la. nk bwk kete la. xtau tmpt la. i mean, wut the hell is the bloody problem? does it really matter where we meet up?? it doesnt really matter where you meet, or how you get there, or what you do once you're there, or how in the blue hell you're supposed to go around, or if you're un-friggin-familiar with the area, its who you meet up with.. huh. pardon my lack of politeness. lets just say, you havent met your parents for one year. would you give a crap if the only place you could meet them was at the summit of mount kinabalu? or in a stinking public toilet? no. you wouldnt. although this may not be the best of comparison, considering we all love our parents a lot more than our friends.. but as engineers say, its an ideal situation. you see, in engineering, most of the things that we study are in ideal state, meaning, its absolutely perfect, with no flaws. it doesnt happen in real life, but we study it anyways so that we can compare the real life cases with the ideal ones. so in this case, the ideal person or people to meet would be ones parents, but in real life, the ones that we havent met is our friends. hehe. enough engineer talk. it really depends on how much you want to meet up with your friends. i once went on a get-together with some friends, and i ended up sleeping in an airport, much like the movie 'the terminal'. haha. but, i didnt get mad at the guy that planned the trip, its not his fault, but it may have made us a lot closer in the end, considering neither of us pointed the finger to anyone of us.. friends till the end mates. although there was a certain someone that was responsible for that particular disaster, a girl, huhu, but in the spirit of ramadhan al-mubarak, ill refrain from mentioning the name here. oit. back to the original topic. erm, basically, i dont really care where we meet, dont really care what we're going to do there, what i do care about is that everyones there. sure, i want to be comfortable, i want to have fun, but to waste more time rethinking where to go after all the plans have been made, thats just plain useless. oh well. they say that great minds think alike, if im one of the great minds, i guess the friends that are still rethinking all this stuff arent so great-minded. hahaha. or it cud be the other way around. just kidding ppl. i can only ask that we put aside all the useless squabling on how to get there, whether we should gather up before going, and just concentrate on getting there, plan on where to stay, where to go, what to do, and who to contact in case of emergencies. yup, i think thats bout it. but if you guys still want to discuss these things, fine by me. the normal lifespan of a human being these days in average is 67 years old. im 18 now. so theoretically speaking, i have another 59 years to go to reunions, so no hurry guys. hua3. but seriously, try to hurry things up. while im still young. haha.

i think ill stop here for now. hehe. ive got a plant visit tomorrow. im visiting a chemical plant or something. a cement factory if im not mistaken. at 8 30 am. its 3 30 am now. hehe. selamat berpuasa to all muslims.  may we all improve ourselves during this holy month, if not drastically, a small improvement is better than nothing at all. dunno when ill be writing again, most probably not in the nearest future, my procrastinating habits are taking a toll on me, a whole lot of stuff to do in such a short amount of time. hehe. till i find the time, the initiative, the lack of stuff to do and the lack of stuff that needs to be done, hehe, take care, stay young, chow.

friends i don't like?

peculiar title eh? i thought so too when i saw this term the first time. i was reading a bulletin a friend of mine put up when i came across it. "Honestly, do you have a friend you don't like?" at first i thought, "how weird is that, how can you still be friends with someone you don't like!?" but after taking the time to think about it for a bit, i guess its absolutely TRUE... when i think about it, yeah, sure, i like my friends, i'd do almost anything for some of my friends, but there are times when i cant even stand them! (and im sure there are moments when they cant stand me... huhu). even with my closest friends, i get into arguments or squabbles sometimes...

so surely there are friends that i dont like. friends that i just cant be around. but that is somewhat weird since if you cant be around that person, can you really call that person your friend? i guess the answer is yes, probably because you dont have a choice. your life is somewhat intertwined with his/hers. there are some friends i would gladly run away from, simply because our personalities dont match. there are certain types of ppl that i cant mix with, no matter what. why? because when im around these ppl, i cant be myself. most of the time, thats the reason. one thing about me, is that im no hypocrite. i dont tell lies. im probably not so good at concealing my emotions, especially if its anger... when im angry with you, there's no such thing as "yasin ni mcm marah je..."... when im angry with you, you'll definitely KNOW. because i'll tell it straight to your face that im angry about something , with the exception of certain ppl, of course, such as my parents, family. i care/respect these ppl too much to be that angry with them...

so, probably the number one person i cant be around is ppl that cant admit to their mistakes, or doesnt take thrashing (when they deserve it) very well... i simply cant stand this kind of ppl and they probably cant even look at me without turning into stone or sumthing.. haha. when you make a mistake, whats the right thing to do? well, in my book, you apologise and/or try to make things rite... these type of ppl dont do that. in their book, "when i make a mistake, the last thing i want to do is apologise... coz that'll make me look more idiot-like than i already am.. no, i should deny ever making a mistake, blame everyone else, and if that doesnt work, shut up and completely ignore the person scolding me until he/she leaves... yeah! damn i'm clever!..." yeah, from what ive seen so far, thats probably how they deal with things in life... i cant possibly do something like this, im far too responsible to just deny whatever mistake i do, well, most of the time, at least. plus, if im doing the scolding, and suddenly the guy ignores me, i know i have to stop, bcoz he's not responding to the scolding and by the face he's making, i know he's offended... but you cant imagine how i feel!! i cant truly describe how i feel when this happens. angry, because the person at wrong isnt admitting his mistakes or apologising, and bloody frustrated, for....  ARGHH!! yeah, thats it. ARRGGHH!!! although this is how i feel, that idiot doesnt know this, because all he/she can get through his/her thick skull is "that bloody bastard scolded me.. i am truly hurt". so i try to patch things up, even though my heart is on the verge of breaking in half.. but one can only hold on for so long.. lets just say that these type of ppl, i do talk to once in a while, but i dont get too close to them... i guess i consider them my friends, with the word 'friends' here meaning ppl i hv to talk to, but dont want to...

2nd type of person i cant be around is, ppl that cant accept my type of humor. for those that dont know, im very very sarcastic. i think i got it from my father. why do i say that? well, i didnt really realise it at first until a close friend of mine pointed it out to me a few years back. i was telling him the joke that my father made when my family went to a kenduri. there was this one kid sitting at the same table as us. he was quite the hyperactive one.. always moving around, playing with his food, and we were enjoying his company... then, while eating, he burped real loud... huhu. and my brother, or was it me, that said, "uish, kuatnye sendawa...! hehe". then, the kid asked me "sendawa tu apa?" haha. before i cud answer him, my father said "sendawa ni mcm rabbit, tapi telinga dia pjg sikit... " hahahahaha. this one guy sitting in front of me almost choked (aper 'tersedak' dlm english?) on his drink... haha. so, sarcasm runs in the family. haha. like father, like son, they always say. ke mana tumpahnye kuah kalau tak ke bawah. haha. moving on, later i found out that jokes like these, not everyone can comprehend.. huhu. in fact, some are actually offended by these types of jokes. of course once in a while i slip in some nasty comments such as "2+2=5? You're a freaking 'genius'!".. hehe. but its all in good fun. i dont mind ppl doing that to me. but some just cant take it. and if i do one about them, they get offended, then either get angry with me, or try their best to hurt my feelings back, which was never my intention.. it was just plain teasing. apparently, no matter how smart some ppl are, they cant appreciate such a simple form of fun which is sarcasm.. so, with me not being able to change my true nature of being sarcastically funny all the time, i think you can figure out why these type of ppl cant stick with me for too long...

i dont like being used. nobody likes being used. i had a friend once. yeah, had. i dont feel like calling this guy my friend anymore, bad as that may sound. he seems to have the idea that im he's private money lender or something, and instead of actually returning the money when he has some, he seems to think that he doesnt have to. oh yeah, sure, when he wants to borrow the money, its all "ill pay you as soon as possible...". nothing but lies. me and this guy were quite close at school, which is the reason why i dont mind him borrowing my money, and why im dumb enough to believe all his crap. so when we finished school, we didnt contact each other that much for some reason. until recently, he contacted me, asking me how am i, what am i doing now, all those stuff. he even asked me when i was coming home. thinking how close we were back then, i thought then that maybe he really did want to get together and catch up on lost times.. although theres always that small voice saying "he's just doing this to gain something from you.." . i guess i should always listen to that small voice, as it turns out he only wanted to meet to borrow my cd player.. haha. and to think i actually, truly thought that he actually wanted to see me just for the sake of catching up.. haha. yasin, yasin. how foolish you are. i normally dont say any names in my blog, but this time, ill make an exception. he probably wont be reading this blog, probably cant considering his 'extremely high' level of english proficiency, but ill say his name anyways. Am, go to hell. f**k the hell off. you are no longer my friend, and if memory serves me right, you probably never were...

hmmm... lets talk bout something as. the orchestra. yeah, i like being in the orchestra. going for training is one of the things i look forward to every week. i dont know most of the ppl in the orchestra, im only close with the other violinists, but still, i look forward to the training sessions all the time. probably because i like playing the violin. its not that i cant play in my room, but if i play in my room, it wont sound so nice.. hehe. the orchestra is now getting ready for the convo performance, and it seems that before the convo performance, there'll be one small performance.. cant wait for that. huhu. its exciting really, performing on stage. there's a certain thrill, certain excitement you cant get anywhere else. hehe. i can see now why some very old artists still like to do concerts even though they look old enough to be my grandfather... haha. and some of them are grandfathers... huhu. my violin skills arent improving that much these days, due to the lack of training, but i guess it'll improve slowly.. rome wasnt built in a day.

so i guess thats about it, my friends. yes, for those that read this blog, i consider you ppl as my friends. why would i do such a thing when i dont even know who is reading this blog? to me, it doesnt really matter who's reading this, what matters is that you're reading it. it means you care about my life, about my feelings, or at the very least, you care about what i have to write. so thank you, friend (and cousins, of course. hehe). it is hard to find a true friend these days, one that understands you, one that without any hidden agenda, truly cares about you and your well-being. therefore, i feel truly blessed, despite the fact that some ppl arent exactly my friends, i am lucky enough to have true friends, friends that i would follow to the ends of the earth, to the deepest depths of the ocean, the farthest reaches of the galaxy, simply because, i know that these ppl would do nothing less for me. chow.

"Remind me that we'll always have each other,
when everything else is gone."

Dig - Incubus

c'est la vie

heyya ladies and gents.. i dont really have that much to say this time, but seeing as how i havent been updating for some time, due to the tight schedule of the violin training and the start of the new sem, so i guess, since im not doing anything at 2 30 in the morning, i thought, why not update the blog? so wut if my lecture is at 8 in the morning? bak kata the indian guy dlm iklan astro, "ive got time!". haha.

lets kick things off with a bit of update in the orchestra department. well, as it turns out, i will be performing in the concert.. yay! i guess i'm good enough to play the songs.. or it cud be due to the fact that all the mistakes that i make arent loud enough to be heard in the midst of all the other sounds.. hehe. no matter, i get to perform, and that good enough for me, for now, at least. it is also quite encouraging to know that ppl are actually paying to see this thing, this performance. rm 3. quite cheap, or shud i say, bloody cheap, considering that the show starts at 8 30 pm and ends at midnight approximately, performances not only from the Classical & Jazz Orchestra, but from the Indian Orchestra, Chinese Orchestra, Keroncong group, Gamelan group, and the UTP choir, and to top it all off, 3 new artists will be performing there : cheryl samad, ultimat, ijan. so its really REALLY cheap! im not quite sure if these 3 ppl can actually sing, but... who cares. haha. apparently they're all releasing their new album, and their releasing it here in utp, so for those that are fans to these 3 ppl, or grup, come on down and visit UTPO Symphonyfest '07.. bit of advertisement here. hehe. sorry bout that. dtg la tgk ak perform. bl lagi.. hehe.

apart from that, i just started my new semester... so far, it has been uneventful. in other words, boring.. haha. i didnt even bother to arrange my timetable this time, i just followed the timetable of my friend.. damn lazy. the only thing that probably adds a little bit of excitement in my day to day life at the moment is the fact that i have long hair, up to my shoulders. some of you ppl would probably yawn rite now, especially the girls, but considering that im a boy, and the guards at UTP actually issue fines to boys with long hair, im practically always on the lookout for the blue-coats, trying to escape the law is always a thrilling experience..  but i do have a secret weapon. hehe. my snow cap. i never really wear the thing, i cant really tell why i even bought the thing, but the thing about snow caps is that when you wear it, its going to cover your head, concealing your hair.... so, if i wear the snow cap, the guards cant tell if i have long hair! hehe. pretty ingenious huh? although i dont think that many ppl approve of me wearing the thing, i always get weird looks from my coursemates whenever i wear it. there was this one guy that actually said "nmpk mcm ppuan..". haha. no comment mate. you can never please everyone.

a year ago, when i first entered utp, i wore a bracelet (not quite sure wut 'gelang' is in english..). its nothing fancy really, gelang mekah.. the name comes from where ppl usually buy it, Makkah Al Mukarramah.. the only thing wrong bout it is that it looks like the bracelet indian women like to wear... it LOOKS like it, but its definitely not the same thing, its made of plastic, its either red or black. the indian bracelet is usually gold... im not really sure why, but i liked wearing it.

there's actually a story behind that. mak lompor and abah (my aunt and uncle..) just got back from haji at the time and naturally, they bought some stuff for the ppl back home. they didnt really buy anything specific for me, so i asked them for the gelang mekah and a flexible ketayap.. my first one (the gelang) was black, it looks a bit more manly, hehe. but it breaks easily, the gelang, especially if you dont take care while wearing it.. so in the end, it broke off, the whole thing, in fact theres an unbelievably interesting story on how i lost the gelang, but, no need to tell it here. hehe. suffice to say, it now sleeps with the fishes in UM lake.. hehe. so, i kind of got attached with the thing, so i asked mak lompor for another one, but she said, "warna hitam dah habis la, warna merah punya ada la, mak ada lagi satu...". usually the red bracelet is taken by the girls, the guys usually take the black coloured bracelet, but since i had no choice, i thought what the heck.. so i took it. it lasted longer than its predecessor, if im not mistaken, i ended pasum wearing that red bracelet, and nobody seemed to give a crap then, but apparently, things arent the same at utp.. i have no idea wut the hell is wrong with a guy wearing a bloody bracelet, i mean, it doesnt make me look less of a man, does it? or is it because of the fact that it looks like an indian bracelet? anyhow, only after i tell ppl that its a bracelet from mekah do they actually shut the hell up.. "ni bkn gelang keling, ni gelang mekah, kalo dah pegi mekah tau la..". senyap terus. but while conducting an experiment in my organic chemistry lab, i spilled some chemicals on the bracelet and it actually melted and fused to my skin! wicked... at first because of the red colour, i thought that the chemical actually melted my skin!, but upon closer inspection, gelang tu yg cair rpnya.. so thats how/why i stopped wearing bracelets... and now the snow cap is causing so much commotion. dont these ppl have anything better to talk about??!! but this time, i dont give a crap wut ppl say.. ske ati aku la nk pky ke x. korg nk ckp apa... it keeps me from getting a rm 30 fine, whilst all you guys do is talk shit about me, so i'd choose the snow cap over you guys any day... muahaha. and it has been PROVEN to work! just this morning, there was sort of a road block at pocket D (the place where i usually go for my lectures...) the blue-coats are looking for 'victims', ppl to issue their nice little rm 30 fines... and wouldnt you know it, i left my damn snow cap in my room! of all the days, the day i forgot to bring it with me is the day the guards decide to have their Operasi Saman Bdk2 UTP... so i had to run back to my room and grab it. i already got a fine once for having long hair, im not going to get another one.. and the cap worked perfectly... the guards didnt suspect a thing. i was so thrilled, i actually jumped in joy.. hehe.

oh yeah, i forgot, i already know my results from last sem.. i intended on telling ppl in the last blog post, but since i accidentally deleted the first post, i left that part out, i was getting bored of writing the same thing over and over again. neways,  for this time, i got deans list. hehe. not bad eh? i guess the semi-hard work paid off. huhu. i'll try to aim higher this time around, and i'll even try to work even harder.. hehe. there's definitely more ppl getting into the deans list this time around. i guess ppl learn from their mistakes, well, most of them at least. not to say that i dont play around anymore, i still play around, but i guess when its study time, its study time, when its play time, its play time. and i TRY to make the study time longer than the play time, although most of the time the play time is a lot longer.. haha. what to do..

Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows. The seventh and final book in the Harry Potter series, and ive finished reading it! WOOHOO! 9.5 out of 10 stars! 0.5 missing because of the high price i had to pay for it. i didnt know that tesco sold it at 69.90 at the time i picked it up at mph... huhu. oh well, at the very least i got the book early, i got a harry potter paper bag and a harry potter mug. all is not lost. all i can say about the book is that its a marvellous ending to such a great series. although it is sad to imagine that there wont be anymore harry potter after this one. i'm a big fan, i guess. harry potter is probably the only 700-pages book that i actually LIKE to read.. haha. never really read long novels before i read harry potter. only short ones. never followed a novel series before. yeah, im gonna miss harry potter. its the feeling you get when a nice series ends.. its similar to the feeling that you get when you see the Lord of The Rings : Return Of The King... "aiseh, wut will i look forward to in the coming years?...." yeah, something like that. all good things come to an end, i guess. c'est la vie...

i dont think i have anything else to write for this time. and its already 3 43 am. time to go sleep. writing a blog takes up at least an hour. for me, at least an hour. most ppl have very simple blogs. mine's quite long, so no surprise there. but its one of my favorite past times, when i feel like it, it is very entertaining, and very fulfilling when you know ppl read it. i guess it depends on the person. some ppl in this world simply loathe reading and writing. some ppl just cant do enough reading, they bring books everywhere, and some ppl such as myself, like to write, simply to fill up their time, for reasons even i cant explain. i like reading blogs as well. i read almost every blog i come across, but most of the time, its like 5 sentences long, or its actually the lyrics of some song... so, not worth my time, unless its dedicated to me.. hehe. but, thats really up to the person, its their blog, its entirely up to their creativity on how to fill it up. just like its my snow cap, its entirely up to me on how or if i want to wear it, and my hair, its entirely up to me how i style it or if i want to keep it long or short, and, entirely up to me and me alone to pay up the fine should i get caught... hehe. take care ppl. chow.

musical disaster..

i wrote a new post during the day, but due to some unforeseen consequences, i accidentally deleted it. damn. haha. so i guess i'll be pretty much re-writing what i wrote in the day. damn.. haha. cud've used all dat time to practice playing the violin.. haha.

for those that dont already know, im back in utp, for orchestra training. yeah, im in UTP Orchestra nowadays, imagine that. though id have to say, im not really that good. i think they took me in, simply because they're desperate. they dont have that many ppl in the violin section, so, they took in real newbies like myself.. huhu. seriously, im not being modest. before the training week, the only song i really knew how to play was twinkle2 little star.. haha. yeah, its lame, i know, but its a start... so neways, we were told to come back early for orchestra training. 2 weeks early, to be exact. my lectures dont start until next week.. huhu. the things i do for ppl i barely even know.

its been rumored that we (me and a couple of my friends that are also newbies..), were called back to perform for UTP Convocation, this coming August. and the rumours turn out to be true. at first, i thought, thats almost 2 months of practice time, coz the convo is at the end of August, so i guess, wut the hell, it can be done. what i didnt know is that other than the convo, we were supposed to perform for 2 more shows, the 1st one being in the same week the lectures open. meaning ive got about a bit more than 2 weeks to prepare, to learn all those complicated songs, in 2 weeks time. shit. haha.

and so, me and friends started practicing. as hard as we could. every day of the past week, we would practice. and our fingers have paid dearly for it. see, when you play the violin, you're going to have to press the strings, and the strings arent.. how can i put this, soft to the touch. needless to say, after the 2nd day i think, my tips of my fingers have gone hard.. the 1st day, it was hurting after long hours of playing, but on the 2nd day, i think i got used to the pain, probably coz it was already hard at the time. it is said that to play the violin well, your fingertips actually NEED to be hard, so that you can press the string harder, making sure the note that you're trying to play wont be distorted, or sumthing like that. hmm. interesting huh.

neways, after a few days of practicing, i think i really did improve, quite a bit. i read the notes (yg taugeh2 tu...) a bit faster than i did before (although i still need to write them down most of the time..), i dont have to look at the violin while playing (although i still look sumtimes, mostly coz of habit..), and believe it or not, i can actually play the hard songs. definitely not as good as the senior players, im no musical prodigy, but ive improved. i didnt miss any practice sessions. i guess i really want to be good at playing the violin. partlly because i dont want to screw up the upcoming performance. imagine, the whole orchestra performing, as harmonious as can be, with the hall full of spectators, then, out of nowhere, an out-of-tune sound comes out. the entire orchestra stops, and stares at the person responsible, YOU. huhu. i wouldnt want to be that person...

i was a bit upset about something though. the conductor, the guy that runs the orchestra, you know, the guy that moves his hands all around, acting like he's actually doing something important, (hehe), had a rather unpleasant announcement for the new guys of the orchestra, namely me and my friends. he said that if we arent up to par for the performance next week, we werent going to be able to perform. theres nothing wrong with it actually. whats bad about it is that ive been training the whole week, while the other orchestra guys have been slacking off, and they get to perform.. aiseh. if i knew i wasnt going to be able to perform, i wouldnt be training so damn hard. haiya ini orang ah.. but i guess he's only doing whats best for the orchestra.. he's quite strict when it comes to the orchestra... still, to expect us to be at the same level with ppl already playing for years, impossible man.. oh well. que sera sera, whatever will be, will be...

lets talk bout sumthing else. have you guys seen the new harry potter movie? its quite good actually.. considering that the movie tries to stick to the book as much as possible, with only slight deviations.. i only wished that there were more about the order though.. the order of the phoenix, in case you guys dont know..the books are real nice, thick as they may be, the language in it is understandable.. hehe. unlike some books, where the language in it, im not even sure if its english anymore.. huhu. so far ive only read book no 4, 5 and 6. and i actually pre-booked the final book, Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows... hehe. although im not sure if ill be able to pick it up on its release date, 21st July.. orchestra training.. again.

well, thats bout it for this time. i actually wrote a bit longer during the day, but ive lost the feel to write. probably coz of this orchestra thing. draining the life out of me. huhu. wish me luck ppl. ill sure as hell need it..

as we near the end of this post, i guess i'd do a bit of advertising. just to help out fellow bloggers out there..
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http://neorackle.blogspot.com/      >> my housemate's blog. lovey dovey sort.
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chow.