here's something interesting i heard recently.
a friend of mine, lets call him A, for some reason the other day confided in me a problem he has. guess it troubled him a bit keeping it all bottled up. me, being the super-reliable friend that i am, decided to listen though most of the time i don't really like meddling in other people's business.
see, this A was in a relationship of sorts a long time ago, 5 years back i think. since then as far as i can tell he hasn't been in another one. maybe he thought he didn't like getting tied or not really into the whole relationship thing, i dunno. anyways, he told me that his ex contacted him the other day. let's go alphabetical and call the ex-gf B. haha
apparently they still keep in touch even after the breakup coz they're friends with the same people, and probably coz A felt kinda bad for the way he ended the thing. so they chatted a bit, did some catching up, just casual stuff that friends would normally do.
then, B suddenly says that she misses him, which caught A totally off guard. he says to her "don't you have a boyfriend?". B goes on to say that she never got over him, even after all these years, and that the guy that she was supposedly dating, she wasn't really into, so she broke up with that guy recently.
(i was kinda smirking at this point coz i thought my friend was making up stories to make him look like this hot stud, but from his face it didn't look that way, so i bit my tongue and put on my "serious listener" face)
obviously my friend wasn't too happy bout this. he says that he's been keeping his distance from her to avoid this sort of thing, and actually made up stories of a fictional gf just so the ex would not bug him anymore. (i guessing that this wasn't the first time she did this, but i didn't really ask)
so he kinda said something like "i'm sure there are so many guys out there who would want to be your bf, so pls move on and forget me". and the girl says that there are guys that are interested, but she only has eyes for him. at this point in the story i couldn't like, contain myself so i asked "what did you say then?". he said that there's not much he CAN say at the moment and kinda repeated what he said before. haha. us guys aren't very articulate, are we.
oh, i forgot to mention that we were in a lecture hall at the time, so gossiping about ex-girlfriends isn't exactly what you're supposed to do in a lecture hall, no matter how boring the lecture / lecturer was, so when A appeared to stop talking i tried to focus on the man talking to himself at the front of the hall.
"......... and that would've been the end of the story if it weren't for Facebook!", A continued.
"hehe, apa jadi plak lepas tu?", says I. the balding man at the front will have to continue talking to himself. haha.
A goes on to say that not a week after their conversation, B changes her status to "In a relationship with ***", the star being some other guy.
wow. no wonder he seemed upset. that was quick.
he says that he's not upset or anything, he's just mad that she's doing this sort of thing, AGAIN. (much emphasis on the again part). he says that she has been doing this, i.e saying something and then doing something completely opposite to what she just said, always, even when they were together. he couldn't care less who she ends up with at this point, but why say to him she still loves him, then suddenly be with someone else 5 minutes later? (obviously an exaggeration to make his point. do i really need to explain this? haha) is it just to screw with his brain? or did she mean what she said? if she did, then is she just playing around with this new guy?
i have to admit, i understand A's frustration. no this is not just the "supportive friend" talking, this is me as a human talking. sometimes girls, or more generally people do things that really, REALLY get on your nerves, but what really annoys you isn't the act itself, but rather WHY it is done. you can't seem to understand WHY someone would do such a thing.
but, for the life of me, i couldn't say anything at the time. i don't know WHAT to say to him. i mean, i wanted to say something, maybe advice, or maybe a cheer-up, but i couldn't come up with anything. sigh, us guys really are bad with words.
and so, we sat there, silent, finally paying attention to the guy talking at the front of the hall, who appears to be laughing at his own jokes at the time. though i couldn't really offer any words of advice or anything at all that might have helped, i think just listening helps sometimes. i think. i mean, my friend seemed to be actually laughing to the jokes the lecturer was making, so he must be okay. hahah.
maybe the girl was telling the truth. maybe she was still in love with A, but she finally realizes that she should move on so she hooks up with the guy that she thinks will help her do that. or maybe the girl was just plain evil and wanted to mess with A's head. or maybe there's an entirely different reason that A has conveniently left out of the story. or maybe something totally unrelated. who knows, really.
Although I'm pretty sure A & B won't be reading this, you can never really tell. If anyone related to this story reads this, your identity has been kept a secret, so no one will know it was you. If by any chance A is reading this, my advice to you is this : whether she forgets you or not, its you that should forget her. stop letting her mess with your head. and try to pay more attention in class. haha.
If by any chance B is reading this, I can't really tell why you did what you did, but I sincerely wish you all the best in your new relationship. coz if you are in love with A, then your relationship is going to need all the help it can get. but if you are in love with the new guy, then may he be able to withstand your "charms".
oh, i wanna know what you guys think as well, so please do comment. be it here, or facebook (this is for ayol in case she can't seem to get the comment thing to work again. haha).
till next time, peace.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
love song for no one
As I jumped around from blog to blog, I realize that most of the blogs are talking about love, or lack thereof. See, as a guy that pays too much attention to his computer than to girls, I don't really have much to say about this. However, I believe that whoever you are, be it a plain Jane or a smokin' supermodel, there is someone out there for you and you should settle for no less than that someone, although it may take you a few someones to figure out what you really want, or more importantly, what you really need.
I recently watched a not-so-lovey-dovey movie called "500 Days of Summer". Quite late, I know. At first I was under the impression it was a lovey-dovey movie, so I wasn't all that into these types of movies, but since I've heard quite a few people talk about it, I decided I'll give it a shot.
And I really liked it! This is reality! Not the same fairy tale we've been fed for so long.
If you haven't seen it, go see it because I'll be talking about it for a bit.
People were pitying the guy, and who could blame them, but I say, it was the guy's fault. The girl said from the beginning that she wanted to be only friends, and the only thing she did wrong was that she did what she said she wanted. I pity the guy too, but honestly the girl didn't exactly do anything wrong.
And the guy was pissed off at the girl for not wanting to go to the next level with him, but suddenly married some guy she knew for only a short while. However, I really liked her explanation. It was short and simple. "I just woke up one day and I knew, what I never was sure of with you".
The thing I liked most about the movie, apart from how real it felt (not some fluffed up love story), is the subtle yet strong messages throughout the movie. One would be when the little sister said that she thinks that the girl wasn't the 'one' for his brother and he should recall not only the good parts, but also the bad parts of the relationship. I think people sometimes focus too much on the good things or in some cases the bad things, and we forget the other things. But that's life I suppose. Focus more on the guy's money, you'll forget how ugly he looks. Stuff like that.
Another one would be the part when he met the new girl, Autumn. See, there was this beautiful girl, that had the same interests as he did, that liked the same spot in the city as he liked, and noticed him there, but he didn't notice her. And her answer to that was "You must not have been looking". He was so blinded by this one girl who didn't really appreciate what he liked, he didn't see this other girl who could have been so right for him.
Ok enough lovey dovey talk. haha. In conclusion it is a very nice movie and if you haven't seen it yet, then you should.
I shall stop here. Didn't really have anything to write. Just got bored. Happy Chinese New Year everyone.
p/s: Love song for no one is a song by John Mayer. not a bad song for single people. haha.
I recently watched a not-so-lovey-dovey movie called "500 Days of Summer". Quite late, I know. At first I was under the impression it was a lovey-dovey movie, so I wasn't all that into these types of movies, but since I've heard quite a few people talk about it, I decided I'll give it a shot.
And I really liked it! This is reality! Not the same fairy tale we've been fed for so long.
If you haven't seen it, go see it because I'll be talking about it for a bit.
People were pitying the guy, and who could blame them, but I say, it was the guy's fault. The girl said from the beginning that she wanted to be only friends, and the only thing she did wrong was that she did what she said she wanted. I pity the guy too, but honestly the girl didn't exactly do anything wrong.
And the guy was pissed off at the girl for not wanting to go to the next level with him, but suddenly married some guy she knew for only a short while. However, I really liked her explanation. It was short and simple. "I just woke up one day and I knew, what I never was sure of with you".
The thing I liked most about the movie, apart from how real it felt (not some fluffed up love story), is the subtle yet strong messages throughout the movie. One would be when the little sister said that she thinks that the girl wasn't the 'one' for his brother and he should recall not only the good parts, but also the bad parts of the relationship. I think people sometimes focus too much on the good things or in some cases the bad things, and we forget the other things. But that's life I suppose. Focus more on the guy's money, you'll forget how ugly he looks. Stuff like that.
Another one would be the part when he met the new girl, Autumn. See, there was this beautiful girl, that had the same interests as he did, that liked the same spot in the city as he liked, and noticed him there, but he didn't notice her. And her answer to that was "You must not have been looking". He was so blinded by this one girl who didn't really appreciate what he liked, he didn't see this other girl who could have been so right for him.
Ok enough lovey dovey talk. haha. In conclusion it is a very nice movie and if you haven't seen it yet, then you should.
I shall stop here. Didn't really have anything to write. Just got bored. Happy Chinese New Year everyone.
p/s: Love song for no one is a song by John Mayer. not a bad song for single people. haha.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
plastisin
after failing to fall asleep, at 2 30 am, even though i had only around 2 hours of sleep the night before, and a 1 hour nap, i decided to update my blog. even though it has not been a month yet. hopefully the writing will make me sleepy enough.
when you were a kid, did you go for kindergarten? there, surely you played around with plastercine (plastisin)? the modelling clay? play doh? know what i mean? sure you do. i mean, its like common knowledge what that thing is. its the sticky clay like thing that you play around with and make dinosaurs, pizzas, donuts or whatever your imagination wants it to be.
apart from a simple toy, its also useful for covering up simple leaks and cracks in pipes, tanks etc. long story short, i have a leaking pipe, and i wanted to buy plastercine. so while waiting for my dinner to be ready, i went to the 'grocery shop', or whatever it is you call kedai koop in english. (cooperation shop? lol).
"erm bang, ada jual plastisin tak?"
"er plastisin tu apa eh?"
"erm plastisin tu macam... (sambil menggayakan bentuk kotak plastisin yang sangat tak membantu).. camne nak describe eh plastisin... haha"
"haha erm tak tau lah takde kot"
weird. how does one not know what plastisin is? oh, i might need to mention, i just woke up from my nap, therefore my brain is not functioning at its usual efficiency, so apart from it having a rectangle box, i cant think of any other way to describe plastisin. haha.
nevermind i thought, this shop is a bit small anyways, maybe they have it at the bigger shop at the other village (hostel in UTP). and so i went to the other shop.
Me : "ada jual plastisin tak"
Cashier boy 1 : "plastisin? apa tu eh?"
Me : "....(still thinking how to describe plastisin apart from rectangular box)"
Cashier boy 2 : "oh tau, yang tampal2 tu kan?"
Me : "HAA!"
Cashier boy 2 : "tak ada lah..."
Me : "...."
unsatisfied, i searched the shop myself, in case this fella mistook plastercine for a bandage or sticky tape or post-it-note or sumthing.
nope, no plastisin.
grabbing a Cornetto Royale Strawberry Kisses, i exited the shop (after paying of course) and while walking to fetch my dinner, pondered what kind of kindergartens this people went to, or if they even went to kindergarten. surely they played with plastisin before. can't be that their kindergarten, in an effort to cut down costs, gave them tanah liat sungai to play with instead, can it? nah, improbable.
sticky! yes, thats one way to describe plastisin.. bit late, but better late than never they say.
upon returning to my beloved room, i asked my roomate whether he knew what plastisin was. sort of a weird question to ask out of the blue, but i am a bit weird, so thats normal. and yes, he knew what they were.
fuh! was beginning to think i was a spoiled brat playing with plastisin when other people were playing with tanah liat sungai.
then, after a short chat with the roommate, (coz the brain still wasn't warmed up by then), it dawned on me, i may be from a different generation than these shopkeepers. the older shopkeeper, being older than me, may very well did play with tanah liat sungai during his kindergarten days, who knows when the plastisin was invented. but he couldn't be THAT older than me, he looks 20 - 30ish, i can't really tell, i come from a family of awet muda people. (eternally youthful? sigh, very limited vocab).
no joke, i once thought my maths teacher in Form 4 was as old as my grandmother, when thats not logical at all coz my grandmother was 76 at the time. turns out she wasn't even 40 yet, which makes her even younger than my mother, let alone my grandmother. yikes. (note to self : never guess people's age)
and for the younger shopkeeper, my guess is that kindergartens during his time was no longer going for 'fun and creativity' in their activities, maybe more towards 'logical thinking and intelligence', so he probably didn't get the chance to play with the plastisin.
who knows what these kids played with in their kindergarten? for all i know, he probably played with the rubiks cube before nap time and after nap time, solved some sudoku puzzles before playing a game of chess.
sigh, how things have changed. i feel slightly old.
slightly.
i feel that i am blessed in this department. i was one of the lucky few that got to skip standard 4 in primary school, meaning im one year younger than most of my peers. i am born in december, so you can add in another year there (i don't care what year it is, as long as its not my birthday yet, im still not 22! haha). top that off with the eternally youthful complexion i inherited from my parents and voila! 3 years younger me. haha.
okay2, the awet muda thing may not show that much NOW, but come see me in 40 years, and i'll show you!
but really, young, old, not of that matters when you're eating delicious ice cream.
yum yum.
haha. i think its something i just dont grow out of. ice cream. i still like ice cream now. still like it as much as i did 10 years ago. my parents aren't exactly helping either. kat Mekah dulu makan ice cream tiap2 hari sampai batuk2. haha. guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
wonder if kindergartens nowadays serve ice cream. or maybe they substituted it with supplement pills and Brands Chicken Essence. who knows.. (btw, brands commercial with dafi, arguably one of the stupidest commercials ive seen, which is ironic since its trying to promote that you'll be more intelligent by drinking the thing. "How come you're so smart?" "OH, BRANDS!" are-tard. sorry. so much for being less mean.)
although Westerners prefer to take appetizers first, main course second, desserts last (assuming its a 3-course meal, if there's even such a thing), i prefer to take the desserts first. we should really try to invent our own ways of doing things, instead of just following Westerners blindly for no particular reason.
plus, if i keep the ice cream in the fridge while i eat dinner, it might 'evaporate into thin air', but still, don't follow people blindly. We're better than that. and stealing other people's food. We're better than that as well. Blasted beruang. Maybe I'll write about him someday. or maybe i already have. can't recall tho.
take care. peace!
when you were a kid, did you go for kindergarten? there, surely you played around with plastercine (plastisin)? the modelling clay? play doh? know what i mean? sure you do. i mean, its like common knowledge what that thing is. its the sticky clay like thing that you play around with and make dinosaurs, pizzas, donuts or whatever your imagination wants it to be.
apart from a simple toy, its also useful for covering up simple leaks and cracks in pipes, tanks etc. long story short, i have a leaking pipe, and i wanted to buy plastercine. so while waiting for my dinner to be ready, i went to the 'grocery shop', or whatever it is you call kedai koop in english. (cooperation shop? lol).
"erm bang, ada jual plastisin tak?"
"er plastisin tu apa eh?"
"erm plastisin tu macam... (sambil menggayakan bentuk kotak plastisin yang sangat tak membantu).. camne nak describe eh plastisin... haha"
"haha erm tak tau lah takde kot"
weird. how does one not know what plastisin is? oh, i might need to mention, i just woke up from my nap, therefore my brain is not functioning at its usual efficiency, so apart from it having a rectangle box, i cant think of any other way to describe plastisin. haha.
nevermind i thought, this shop is a bit small anyways, maybe they have it at the bigger shop at the other village (hostel in UTP). and so i went to the other shop.
Me : "ada jual plastisin tak"
Cashier boy 1 : "plastisin? apa tu eh?"
Me : "....(still thinking how to describe plastisin apart from rectangular box)"
Cashier boy 2 : "oh tau, yang tampal2 tu kan?"
Me : "HAA!"
Cashier boy 2 : "tak ada lah..."
Me : "...."
unsatisfied, i searched the shop myself, in case this fella mistook plastercine for a bandage or sticky tape or post-it-note or sumthing.
nope, no plastisin.
grabbing a Cornetto Royale Strawberry Kisses, i exited the shop (after paying of course) and while walking to fetch my dinner, pondered what kind of kindergartens this people went to, or if they even went to kindergarten. surely they played with plastisin before. can't be that their kindergarten, in an effort to cut down costs, gave them tanah liat sungai to play with instead, can it? nah, improbable.
sticky! yes, thats one way to describe plastisin.. bit late, but better late than never they say.
upon returning to my beloved room, i asked my roomate whether he knew what plastisin was. sort of a weird question to ask out of the blue, but i am a bit weird, so thats normal. and yes, he knew what they were.
fuh! was beginning to think i was a spoiled brat playing with plastisin when other people were playing with tanah liat sungai.
then, after a short chat with the roommate, (coz the brain still wasn't warmed up by then), it dawned on me, i may be from a different generation than these shopkeepers. the older shopkeeper, being older than me, may very well did play with tanah liat sungai during his kindergarten days, who knows when the plastisin was invented. but he couldn't be THAT older than me, he looks 20 - 30ish, i can't really tell, i come from a family of awet muda people. (eternally youthful? sigh, very limited vocab).
no joke, i once thought my maths teacher in Form 4 was as old as my grandmother, when thats not logical at all coz my grandmother was 76 at the time. turns out she wasn't even 40 yet, which makes her even younger than my mother, let alone my grandmother. yikes. (note to self : never guess people's age)
and for the younger shopkeeper, my guess is that kindergartens during his time was no longer going for 'fun and creativity' in their activities, maybe more towards 'logical thinking and intelligence', so he probably didn't get the chance to play with the plastisin.
who knows what these kids played with in their kindergarten? for all i know, he probably played with the rubiks cube before nap time and after nap time, solved some sudoku puzzles before playing a game of chess.
sigh, how things have changed. i feel slightly old.
slightly.
i feel that i am blessed in this department. i was one of the lucky few that got to skip standard 4 in primary school, meaning im one year younger than most of my peers. i am born in december, so you can add in another year there (i don't care what year it is, as long as its not my birthday yet, im still not 22! haha). top that off with the eternally youthful complexion i inherited from my parents and voila! 3 years younger me. haha.
okay2, the awet muda thing may not show that much NOW, but come see me in 40 years, and i'll show you!
but really, young, old, not of that matters when you're eating delicious ice cream.
yum yum.
haha. i think its something i just dont grow out of. ice cream. i still like ice cream now. still like it as much as i did 10 years ago. my parents aren't exactly helping either. kat Mekah dulu makan ice cream tiap2 hari sampai batuk2. haha. guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
wonder if kindergartens nowadays serve ice cream. or maybe they substituted it with supplement pills and Brands Chicken Essence. who knows.. (btw, brands commercial with dafi, arguably one of the stupidest commercials ive seen, which is ironic since its trying to promote that you'll be more intelligent by drinking the thing. "How come you're so smart?" "OH, BRANDS!" are-tard. sorry. so much for being less mean.)
although Westerners prefer to take appetizers first, main course second, desserts last (assuming its a 3-course meal, if there's even such a thing), i prefer to take the desserts first. we should really try to invent our own ways of doing things, instead of just following Westerners blindly for no particular reason.
plus, if i keep the ice cream in the fridge while i eat dinner, it might 'evaporate into thin air', but still, don't follow people blindly. We're better than that. and stealing other people's food. We're better than that as well. Blasted beruang. Maybe I'll write about him someday. or maybe i already have. can't recall tho.
take care. peace!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
birthday wishes.
although i said in the previous post not to, coz u shud be doing it on ur bday instead on new year's, i decided to do so anyways. consider this my list of things i want to do / achieve before my birthday next year, i mean this year..
1 .less clumsy
2. less forgetful
3. less mean to people (sarcastically or not)
4. friendlier to people i don't / barely know
5. be more confident when dealing with people
6. figure out what i'm going to do with my life
7. possibly start taking violin lessons again.
i'm extremely clumsy and forgetful. and it really gets on my nerves sometimes. nobody's fault really, just mine. i sometimes forget the most simple of things, but sometimes remember the smallest of details. just the way my brain works i suppose. it CAN remember these things, but sometimes the mind just blocks out some stuff that it thinks isn't important. which would explain my high-ignorance level. (not stupidity, well, maybe some stupidity, but more to my ability to ignore stuff.) and also my absent-minded-ness. if i wanted to get a pair of scissors for example, i look into the pencilbox and find my calculator, i'll then remember to calculate my homework and forget all about the scissors. i'm easily distracted, easily bored, which does not make me a very good listener, unless its something that interests me, or something juicy... lol.
so, my birthday resolution number one and two is to be less clumsy, (i.e break / destroy less stuff unintentionally.) and be less forgetful.
next thing on the list is be less mean to people. haha. i've been working on this for quite a while now. i can be very mean to people sometimes. most of the time unintentionally. very rarely intentionally, but it does happen. sometimes i am very sarcastic. sometimes sarcastically mean. most of the time i don't realize that i'm being mean, but i'm trying to change that. it's not that i'm mean to EVERYONE... it's just that i realize now that i haven't been very nice to some people in the past and could have been nicer. therefore i would like to be nicer. maybe a good spanking will lead me in the right direction... (or the wrong one... LOL).
see, i have this problem of talking to new people. i don't want to. i don't like talking to strangers. there's a reason why it's called "strangers". they're strange. STRANGER than strange. but it's not necessarily a good thing. sure when you're a kid its good not to talk to strangers, but as you grow up, its expected of you to do so, to socialize with people, and if you don't, people are going to think you're the strange one. and so i changed. when the need for it arises, i talk with people i don't know. friendly as hell. but if there's no need for it, i mind my own business. i couldn't care less if you're a ridiculously hot 21 year-old supermodel that's been eyeing me for the past half hour or someone that looks awfully familiar, i will not talk to you unless you talk to me first.
plus i tend to treat people like they're NPCs.
According to Wikipedia
In games such as WoW, people only interact with NPCs when they need something. Lets say your character needs some food, you go to the NPC that sells food, you buy the food, you leave. People don't normally interact with NPCs, socialize with the NPCs, unless they're ridiculously bored and have nothing to do, then they might. (although wouldn't count on a response, except for those specially programmed NPCs). it would not be so polite if lets say you bought food from someone, almost everyday but never have the time to chat or at least know their name. i tend to do that sometimes. its bad, i know, but its not because im rude or anything, its just that i wouldn't know what to say, or what to talk about. i'm not exactly creative..
Imagine.
Penjual roti canai : Eh bos, u pun potong rambut dekat sini ka?
Me : Aah...
Penjual roti canai : Sudah abis cuti ka sekarang? Lama jugak tara nampak u.
Me : Aah...
Penjual roti canai : .....
(awkward silence)
Me : (trying to break awkward silence) err... hari ni banyak canai roti ke?
Penjual roti canai : .....
lol.
next item on the list would be.... more confident when dealing with people. yeah, very similar to the item before, due to my lack of interest in interacting with people, i also do not like dealing with people i don't know. it just feels very weird to ask someone you barely know to do something for you, or to ask something from them. maybe getting to know the person would help in this department. hmm.
The next one is a tough one. figuring out what to do with my life. Further studies? Work? Something else? So many choices. Throwing a dice would be an easy way to choose. But living with the choice afterwards? Not so easy. haha. Time will tell.
last but not least, violin. i learnt the basics here in UTP. FOC. but the very basics. can barely play on my own. due to the lack of violinists however, was absorbed into UTP Orchestra. performed twice, once during the Symphony Fest, the other during Convocation ceremony. Sadly, not long after, violin section was removed from the orchestra due to... musical differences with the new conductor. I like playing the violin. I may have loathed going to the training sessions, but once I got kicked out, that's when I realized how much I miss practicing the violin with my friends, no matter how awful I sounded at the time. haha.
Although I have my own violin, and generally speaking I can play it on my own, its not as fun / easy as it would be if I were in a group of people. playing on your own, being as knowledgeable about violins as those Islamophobes are about Islam, I can't really improve, nor do I enjoy the 'music' that comes out from my violin. at least when you're in a group your mistakes are not so obvious. haha. would really2 like to start learning it back.
that is all for now.
peace!
1 .less clumsy
2. less forgetful
3. less mean to people (sarcastically or not)
4. friendlier to people i don't / barely know
5. be more confident when dealing with people
6. figure out what i'm going to do with my life
7. possibly start taking violin lessons again.
i'm extremely clumsy and forgetful. and it really gets on my nerves sometimes. nobody's fault really, just mine. i sometimes forget the most simple of things, but sometimes remember the smallest of details. just the way my brain works i suppose. it CAN remember these things, but sometimes the mind just blocks out some stuff that it thinks isn't important. which would explain my high-ignorance level. (not stupidity, well, maybe some stupidity, but more to my ability to ignore stuff.) and also my absent-minded-ness. if i wanted to get a pair of scissors for example, i look into the pencilbox and find my calculator, i'll then remember to calculate my homework and forget all about the scissors. i'm easily distracted, easily bored, which does not make me a very good listener, unless its something that interests me, or something juicy... lol.
so, my birthday resolution number one and two is to be less clumsy, (i.e break / destroy less stuff unintentionally.) and be less forgetful.
next thing on the list is be less mean to people. haha. i've been working on this for quite a while now. i can be very mean to people sometimes. most of the time unintentionally. very rarely intentionally, but it does happen. sometimes i am very sarcastic. sometimes sarcastically mean. most of the time i don't realize that i'm being mean, but i'm trying to change that. it's not that i'm mean to EVERYONE... it's just that i realize now that i haven't been very nice to some people in the past and could have been nicer. therefore i would like to be nicer. maybe a good spanking will lead me in the right direction... (or the wrong one... LOL).
see, i have this problem of talking to new people. i don't want to. i don't like talking to strangers. there's a reason why it's called "strangers". they're strange. STRANGER than strange. but it's not necessarily a good thing. sure when you're a kid its good not to talk to strangers, but as you grow up, its expected of you to do so, to socialize with people, and if you don't, people are going to think you're the strange one. and so i changed. when the need for it arises, i talk with people i don't know. friendly as hell. but if there's no need for it, i mind my own business. i couldn't care less if you're a ridiculously hot 21 year-old supermodel that's been eyeing me for the past half hour or someone that looks awfully familiar, i will not talk to you unless you talk to me first.
plus i tend to treat people like they're NPCs.
According to Wikipedia
A non-player character, often shortened to NPC, is a character that is controlled by the gamemaster in role-playing games. When this definition extends to video games, an NPC in a video game is usually part of the program, and not controlled by a human.
In games such as WoW, people only interact with NPCs when they need something. Lets say your character needs some food, you go to the NPC that sells food, you buy the food, you leave. People don't normally interact with NPCs, socialize with the NPCs, unless they're ridiculously bored and have nothing to do, then they might. (although wouldn't count on a response, except for those specially programmed NPCs). it would not be so polite if lets say you bought food from someone, almost everyday but never have the time to chat or at least know their name. i tend to do that sometimes. its bad, i know, but its not because im rude or anything, its just that i wouldn't know what to say, or what to talk about. i'm not exactly creative..
Imagine.
Penjual roti canai : Eh bos, u pun potong rambut dekat sini ka?
Me : Aah...
Penjual roti canai : Sudah abis cuti ka sekarang? Lama jugak tara nampak u.
Me : Aah...
Penjual roti canai : .....
(awkward silence)
Me : (trying to break awkward silence) err... hari ni banyak canai roti ke?
Penjual roti canai : .....
lol.
next item on the list would be.... more confident when dealing with people. yeah, very similar to the item before, due to my lack of interest in interacting with people, i also do not like dealing with people i don't know. it just feels very weird to ask someone you barely know to do something for you, or to ask something from them. maybe getting to know the person would help in this department. hmm.
The next one is a tough one. figuring out what to do with my life. Further studies? Work? Something else? So many choices. Throwing a dice would be an easy way to choose. But living with the choice afterwards? Not so easy. haha. Time will tell.
last but not least, violin. i learnt the basics here in UTP. FOC. but the very basics. can barely play on my own. due to the lack of violinists however, was absorbed into UTP Orchestra. performed twice, once during the Symphony Fest, the other during Convocation ceremony. Sadly, not long after, violin section was removed from the orchestra due to... musical differences with the new conductor. I like playing the violin. I may have loathed going to the training sessions, but once I got kicked out, that's when I realized how much I miss practicing the violin with my friends, no matter how awful I sounded at the time. haha.
Although I have my own violin, and generally speaking I can play it on my own, its not as fun / easy as it would be if I were in a group of people. playing on your own, being as knowledgeable about violins as those Islamophobes are about Islam, I can't really improve, nor do I enjoy the 'music' that comes out from my violin. at least when you're in a group your mistakes are not so obvious. haha. would really2 like to start learning it back.
that is all for now.
peace!
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