I once did a test, and the test said I was an extrovert too.
But in fact I am not. At least I don't think I am.
I am very quiet when it comes to new people. I rarely ever start conversations.
But I find it necessary, especially in work. To be friendlier.
If I'm not going back to my hometown Ipoh, most weekends are spent alone at my apartment, catching up on chores I've neglected to do during the weekdays.
I really don't feel the need to call up and bother friends on weekends.
But that doesn't mean I won't go out if anyone asked me.
I've always thought of myself as an introvert, yet most people think otherwise.
Now I'm not so sure.
How does one define an introvert?
Seeing as how I'm too lazy to Google for the answer, how do I define an introvert?
One : I don't mind being alone and not talking to anyone.
I wouldn't go so far as too say I prefer being alone as opposed to with friends, being with friends is fun, but there are times I wanna be alone.
Two : I rarely find myself talking to strangers.
Not the type of person to get into lengthy conversations with the cashier at this restaurant I normally go or what, but I do put in an effort to talk to people when it feels awkward, i.e when you're in an elevator with just this other person and you see each other almost every day but never really talked.
Yes I think that is a strong proof that I am an introvert.
Three : I think a lot.
More than I would care to admit. I like analyzing things, and sometimes I end up realizing things that upset me. Although I am not sure that thinking a lot constitutes as an introvert.
I feel that thinking a lot makes me an introvert is because there's a person I know at work that talks a lot, but can be a bit oblivious sometimes.
And I'm a 100% sure she's an extrovert.
I have this friend which I would swear is an extrovert, but he insists that he is an introvert. If it is TRUE that he really is an introvert, then he has mastered the art of conversation superbly.
Conversation is an art. To introverts especially. The words do not come flowingly to the tongue. You'd have to be on your proverbial conversation toes to strike up an interesting conversation, and its even tougher to keep the conversation going.
Especially if you're talking to someone you've just met.
But sometimes its easier. Coz since you don't know much about the person, you can just ask question after question.
It's the people that you know but don't really have that much in common that's hard.
What on earth would I say to these people.
I don't wanna appear rude and reserved, but I really can't think of anything to talk to these people most of the time.
Being Malaysian, most of the time I talk about the weather, rain in particular. Haha.
Next I talk about food. Makan mana?
Once those two topics are discussed, and that said person is still there, I'll just keep quiet and hope they start talking next.