Wednesday, December 16, 2009


after posting a 368-word comment on someone else's blog which had almost no relevance whatsoever to what she was talking about, i decided to babble some more at my own blog, to avoid annoying other people. or perhaps annoy more people. :P

(luckily the word count for my comment did not exceed the word count for her blog, so the comment shouldn't be too annoying. lol.)

it's amazing really, when something strikes you, in that instant you can write so much based on that single thought. you can describe clearly, express your ideas so vividly in words that if people actually read what you wrote, they would see what you saw in your thoughts.

it is also amazing that when that moment passes, even though your head is bursting with ideas, you can't seem to find the words that would adequately describe them, therefore unable to put out your thoughts, however fascinating or incredible it may have been.

i sometimes find myself desperately wanting to write about something, which i think, in the hands of a more experienced and talented writer, would be a most interesting topic to talk about, but unable to do so due to lack of ... whats the word i'm looking for... yes this would be one of those moments.

I am now 21 years old. 21 years old and a week to be more precise. while i was younger, i found out that my birthday is the day alfred bernard nobel, the man who invented the dynamite, died. his invention was not the thing that caught everyone's attention, it was actually the way he affected the world in death that did so.

Alfred Nobel wrote the following in his will :

The whole of my remaining realizable estate shall be dealt with in the following way: the capital, invested in safe securities by my executors, shall constitute a fund, the interest on which shall be annually distributed in the form of prizes to those who, during the preceding year, shall have conferred the greatest benefit on mankind. The said interest shall be divided into five equal parts, which shall be apportioned as follows: one part to the person who shall have made the most important discovery or invention within the field of physics; one part to the person who shall have made the most important chemical discovery or improvement; one part to the person who shall have made the most important discovery within the domain of physiology or medicine; one part to the person who shall have produced in the field of literature the most outstanding work in an ideal direction; and one part to the person who shall have done the most or the best work for fraternity between nations, for the abolition or reduction of standing armies and for the holding and promotion of peace congresses.

The 'prizes' are now more commonly known as the Nobel Prize. And it is on the day of his death every year, coincidentally my birthday that these prizes are given out.

Although I do not foresee myself winning one of the 5 Nobel prize categories anytime in the next millennium, it still is kind of cool to mention though. :P

This year is the second time I was unable to celebrate my birthday with my family. Seeing as how its in December, it would usually be during the holidays. But last year, I had my internship, plus my parents were away for their Haji.

I was 20 last year. I was working on my birthday. My parents were thousands of miles away. I actually felt like I was an adult. LoL. and this year, due to some complications that i myself caused, i was unable to go back home on my birthday, so i was stuck in UTP. lol.

despite not being able to go home, i still had a good time, thanks to the friends that i have. =)

it sucks when you want to write about something but can't seem to find anything worth writing. haihs.

instead of having resolutions on new year's day, people should have resolutions on their birthday. why? simple. having new year's resolutions would be disadvantageous to some people, especially people that were born in December, because of the lack of time. if you were born in December or any month for that matter, why should you make resolutions on January? YOUR year starts on the day you are born, not what some idiot thought up of 2 thousand years back. make any sense? no? think some more. it will. (or it may not, the mind is a difficult thing to comprehend, especially mine. hahah)

Another thing I don't like is how people tend to generalize age according to year. It is very unfair to people that are born in December. I was born in 1988. So in 2008 I would be 20 years old. but it is very unfair for people to say that I am 20 years old in January. I just had my 19th birthday 21 days ago! How can I already be referred to as 20 years old! My friend was born on the 31st of December. The next day he's already one year older?! How unfair is that!?

I also do not like how people discriminate by age. Just because someone is older / younger, doesn't mean they are more / less wiser, more / less attractive etc. I am one year younger than most of my friends. i skipped my standard 4 coz i didn't feel like it. lol. this makes me the youngest in my batch. while most people are okay with it, some do discriminate. especially girls. the thing about girls for some reason is they prefer to have an older guy rather than a younger guy. it doesn't matter how good-looking the guy is (ehem2.. haha) and how the older guy is almost as old as his dad (or grandpa for that matter), they would most likely prefer the older guy. something to do with them feeling safe, needing someone more matured, that can guide them, etc2. which i think is superbly stupid. but what do i know right, i'm one year younger than them. my mind is not yet fully developed to process any rational thought whatsoever. zz.

i do not like to discriminate. really i don't. i try not to most of the time. when someone makes a very stereotypical statement, i often would argue with them even though it didn't really offend me in any way. but in this world that we live in, we can't really avoid it. race. religion. skin colour. physical appearance. sexual orientation. nationality. favorite past time. date of birth. family background. anything under the sun can be discriminated against nowadays.

okay i've past the 1000 word barrier and i think i'm veering off course. plus my eyes are suddenly feeling heavy.

is it true that you get more boring the older you get? i'm starting to believe it after reading back my latest entries. zzz. i probably won't read my blog if i were you guys. in fact, what on earth are you still doing here? lol.

i'd like to believe that i'm further improving myself with each year. perhaps being less lazy, more confident, friendlier, less annoying, less sarcastic, more sarcastic (can't decide which is better), more intelligenter (tq to jack black for this line). perhaps actually having a plan on what to do with life.

my mother is currently hassling me to make up my mind whether to pursue a master's degree or start my career. i am not so sure yet. it is not something that i can just snap my fingers and decide on. i am really stuck in the middle. at the moment i have no actual preference. unless i can be successful by sleeping, eating and playing computer games, then nope, no actual preference yet.

yawn, getting even more sleepier with each word i type.

they say that a picture is worth a thousand words. really? what awful picture would this entry be equal to? lol. ok2, enough2. barely making any sense now.

that is all from the 21 year old boy. peace be upon you.

take care. :)