It has been awhile, has it not?
I've been busy. With unexpected matters.
Unexpected, but not unpleasant.
I consider myself very lucky indeed.
Or perhaps it was always meant to be.
More proof that we can't really predict what God has in store for us.
I was quite ready to move on.
Turn over a new page.
But something made me stay.
Something unwritten, something unsaid.
Perhaps it was blind hope.
Amidst all the confusion, who can tell?
But before the departure, I was sure.
There was something there that wasn't there before.
Try as I might, it was something I couldn't ignore.
And while we were apart, that feeling just felt stronger.
Is it because distance makes the heart grow fonder?
Whatever it was, I knew I wanted her near.
And when I came back, everything became clear.
Though I was too silly to see it, perhaps out of fear.
The walls have come down, she's letting me in.
The next chapter in this story was about to begin.
I've loved her for what felt like an eternity.
And now finally she says that she loves me.
I'm over the moon, I'm beyond ecstatic.
Every day from then feels like magic.
But we're still human, sometimes we bicker, sometimes we fight.
Deep down inside, I know we'll get thru it alright.
I apologize sincerely for all my imperfections,
Know that upsetting you is never my intention.
I better stop before the other readers barf,
but I honestly feel I've found my other half.
You truly are the love of my life,
and I look forward to making you my wife.
My previous posts (assuming other people still read it) have been quite depressing, and it annoys me that I can't write any posts while happy (which is partly why there have not been any new posts for quite awhile), so I decide to go crazy and write something like this.
I smile by myself sometimes thinking of the weird twists of fate that led me to this point in my life. And I often wonder what would've happened if the circumstances were even the slightest bit different. Would things have not turned out the way they did?
It is a scary thought.
I used to think I was quite brave, very few things scare me. But now I realize I'm just human. I was just not exposed to the things normal people are scared of.
I am still new to this whole serious relationship thing, but I'm learning and trying to make it work. I realize that I still have a long way to go. Perhaps it is a lifelong learning process. I feel like it is.
I started writing this yesterday, and even in this short period of time, there has been changes in my mindset. I suppose we all are constantly evolving, and thus why we need to constantly adapt.
I have learnt a lot about myself and about her along the way as well. She surprises me, and I surprise myself as well at times. Much to learn, we both have.
Pray for us.
Peace.
