heyya... blog time. so, what have you learned about abdullah yasin from the previous blog...? quite a lot actually. you've actually gone through more than half of his entire life, at the moment.. if i was actually writing an autobiography, it would have been a very short one.. if you compare it with other ppl's autobiography. no wonder ppl write autobiographies when their old! haha. there's not that much to write about yourself when your young... imagine that. i consider myself to be very young, still very young, considering that on top this table, where the computer im typing this blog with is situated, theres a clock, a table clock. its my fathers table clock, and its at least ten years older than i am. haha. funny huh.
i intend on continuing where i left off the last time, but lets have a recap of whats happening in my life rite now first. basically, nothing. haha. nothing to report other than i went out with some of my school friends today. 2, to be exact. there were five of us actually, but each of my friend brought a friend. its quite pathetic to imagine i was actually SO desperate to go out with some friends, i didnt mind going out with only two other friends. haha. beggars cant be choosers. whats even more pathetic is that these were the only ppl i cud actually get hold of, i cudnt find anyone else that would go out with me. haha. im starting to sound like a loser now, arent i? haha.
for one thing, my class during my late years of secondary school wasnt very big. there were only 21 students in the class. 4 guys, 17 girls, if i remember the numbers correctly. with so few ppl, you'd think we would be quite united, quite close, wouldnt we? haha. not really. there was that one time, where the class was literally divided to 3 parts. The good guys, the bad guys, and the guys that didnt give a crap. haha. but we'll get to that later, if we ever get there. safe to say that i was close to some friends, but not that many people stick to their friends once they find new friends.. its amazing really, how ppl can be so close with one another one minute, and the next be complete strangers. how ppl can just break the bonds of friendship, simply because they havent met as often as they usually would.. i guess thats how u truly tell how ur friend is good one. distance. we've discussed this before, in my first blog entry, so no need to go further.
neways, getting back to the trip out, one friend brought his boyfriend. damn. how the hell are we supposed to have fun if she's going to be all lovey dovey with the boyfriend? needless to say, the outing didnt turn out quite the way i expected it to be. i mean, we havent met each other for more than a year, would it kill you to leave ur boyfriend for one damn day?! haiya... well, to be fair to the boyfriend, he did provide the transportation.. still, boring.. plus, i noticed something on this trip. the friend that came with the boyfriend, i'd have to admit. she's cute. pretty. but NOOO, thats not what i noticed on this outing. im getting to that ppl. haha. what i noticed was the boyfriend isnt what you girls would call "hot". haha. but judging by the number of "ugly boy, hot girl" couples ive seen so far, no big deal. but the thing is, this guy's a bloody jerk! seriously man. ntah la, maybe i'm old-fashioned, but i would never call my girlfriend "bongok" no matter how dumb of a mistake she made...(assuming i have a girlfriend, which i dont.. haha. kna letak disclaimer la kt each blog. spupu2 ku mempunyai mata yg tajam, pantang nmpk lain sket..! :P) and you know what the girl did? she laughed, as if the whole thing was funny. somehow i cant find the humor where the person you love calls you stupid. maybe its because im a guy. my ego is bigger. but i would never be with someone that calls me dumb, just because i made a mistake. humans make mistakes. to be called dumb by someone you dont know is hard enough, to be called dumb by the person you love, it breaks your heart, literally. my heart, at least. i just cant see why these two ppl can get together. i mean, the girl is hot, i'll tell you that, guys in my school have been drooling over her for so long, and some still are. the guy, ntah ler, ak xnmpk la hensem nye kt mana. haha. so my point here is, how blind love is. and how some ppl are so desperate to have someone in their life, so desperate not to be alone, that they sometimes stoop so low to have someone. its not my place to say who's meant for who, i know, but still, have some dignity. find someone that really deserves to have you, respect yourself. its really sick to see how some ppl are just suckers for love.. stay rich, stay cool, stay single. hehe.
overall, the outing was lame. i hate to admit it, but it was lame. even my friend said it. but what was interesting about the outing was that i met someone that i havent met in awhile.. another classmate of mine. i was with one of the friend, the one without the bf, when we met her. she was with a boy. but instead of saying hi, she just acted as if we werent there. she did notice, but she didnt stop to say hi. she just walked past us, laughing, while talking to her boyfriend. amazing how ppl change. and again, here is another example of a person that cant be without someone in her life. as far as i know, she has at least 7 ex boyfriends. and those are the ones i know about. God knows how much there actually are. haha. and judging by the look of this new one, im guessing lucky number 8 isnt too far off. haha.
it is human nature to find someone to love, and to be loved in return. i'm human too (really!?!? haha), i intend to find someone someday, but i want that someone to actually deserve my love, and i will do my very best to deserve her love, not just someone you could pick up from the streets. i guess some people just dont see that. i pity them. love yourself, before loving others (ive heard this somewhere, not sure where, any ideas?).
another issue that always comes up when dealing with ppl that have bf/gf is what happens when they need to choose between their lover and their friends. its not a "i want you to leave ur friends if u want to be with me" thing, although this sort of thing does happen, but its more subtle things. heres an example. your classmates at school, whom you havent met for years, is asking you to go out tomorrow. at the same time, your boyfriend/girlfriend, whom you just finished talking to on the phone five minutes ago, is asking you out on a date at the same time tomorrow. so which would you choose? to me, it would be obvious, i would choose the friends in this particular case. but some ppl are so deeply in love with their partner (up to the point of being an idiot), they tend to forget, abandon their friends, just like that. thats just not right! exactly like today, the couple had to leave early, something came up. my friends and i had some stuff to take care off, so they said they'd be back to pick us up later. yeah rite. they left and they never came back. damn. thank god we didnt wait for them. my friend and i took a cab home. really, is this how you treat your friends? hmm... simply ridiculous. im just too tired to say anything to that friend. she did apologise for not picking us up, but really, are you truly sorry? hmm. things like this really piss me off. i dont mind you guys wanting to hang out wit ur partner, for all i care, go rent a hotel room for a couple of nights if you want to "hang out" wit ur partner so damn much, but at least treat your friends with some respect, if not equal respect to your partner. i was the one that asked you out, yet you leave me hanging for someone that i didnt even invite. what the f*** la wei.. sorry for the profanity, what the hell doesn quite capture the emotion that im having rite now. haha.
treat your friends with respect. you may love your partner with all your heart, but who knows, you guys might be breaking up the next day. its the friends that stick thru, real friends that stay with you, rain or shine. i'm not saying that all my friends that have girlfriends/boyfriends are like this, some do give me the respect i deserve. i hv one friend that once said, "if i hang out with my gf too much, u let me know aite?". some ppl are aware of the fact dat if u hang out wit ur girl/boy too much, u neglect ur friends, u're gonna lose some friends. and as for this guy, he knows, and unlike some ppl i know, he actually cares bout how his friends feel, even though he wants to meet up with his girl. ppl like this, i dont mind. i like. i respect ppl like this. its not wrong to meet up with ur partner, no... its not wrong, but dont overdo it. the trick, to me, i think, is balance. keep everyone happy, u'll be happy as well. at least thats what i think. what would i know about things like this neway? haha.
ahh.. nice to get this stuff out of my chest. i dont have much to say this time. the blog isnt as long as the last one... when i started writing the blog, i had every intention to continue to where i left off the last time, when i was in standard six, the spit thing. but, somehow, somethings r better said than written.. :) plus, if i write everything bout myself down, that wouldnt be fun now would it? haha. wheres the fun in knowing someone by reading? you get to know someone by talking to the person, interacting with the person.. not just by reading something. its like im some sort of machine, and the blog is my instruction manual.. haha. plus, i would be losing my mysterious charm. hehehehe. like it ever was there.. oh yeah, update on the things i want to do during the holidays, i now know how to sew a button on my shirt. hehe. i just learned it on monday, i think.. hehe. cool new skill. trying to think up of more things to learn.. oh yeah, i am quite interested in learning a foreign language, though i havent had the chance yet.. we'll see what life has stored for me soon enough. till next time, chow!
p/s: if im not mistaken, the correct spelling for 'chow' is ciao. i think its an italian word, meaning goodbye. i knew this all along, but somehow i prefer spelling it chow. just thought you guys might want to know dat, in case u havent already..