experiment

apparently, friendster has this new thingy where i can save what i wrote yesterday.... eh wait.

hello ppl. tlupa plak.

k. lets move on. as i was saying, friendster blog has this new thingy (or maybe its an old thingy, coz i never really explore the possibilities with this thing) where i can save what i wrote and come back and finish it off some other time. which is sweeeet, since i always have stuff to say at times, but when i actually do open up my blog to write something, the idea is already boring to me, (although it might be interesting to you guys), so i end up not writing anything... huhu.

so the reason im telling you guys this is that im testing this new(?) feature out. ill write something today (29th October 2008), and maybe when i get the time, i'll write something else, whenever that may be..

actually the reason that got me writing again, a bit early according to my schedule if i might add, is because some of my friends have started writing their blogs, and i dunno, seeing them write, makes me want to write something, which is childish, i know, but what the heck. haha.

is there anything interesting at all to write about today? hmm. not really. all boring stuff, as usual. o yea, a sad fact, i still havent gotten a placement for my internship, but for some reason i myself am not aware of, i am surprisingly extremely optimistic on the matter, even though there is no reason for me to be this way. most of the people in my course, most of my friends, have gotten a placement, some even have more than one, but i am somehow unaffected by all this. sure it kinda sucks when they start talking bout where they're going to stay, what they're going to do, who's going with them, bla3, and i dont really have anything to say to join in the conversation, but i dont really mind. in fact, im actually feeling happy for them. which is something i usually am not inclined to do. haha.

okay. enuf for today. lets wait for next time aite.

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its november 4th, 3 32 am. i finally found the time to write something..

you can never really see where your life is headed. sure, you may plan, predict, but you can never truly know where its going for sure, until you're there.

b4, i talked about how i havent gotten any internship placement yet. the next day, i got 2 offers. unexpected. well, i was expecting to get offered somewhere, just not 2 offers, in the same day... and just yesterday, i got another one. so that makes 3. weird huh. out of nowhere these offers pop up. ah well, that is life.

ive run out of things to write about. interesting things, anyway. probably coz my brains in a jam from all the studying and the coffee i just drank.

owh. remembered something. how fun it is, to know that you're in your study week, and some of your friends in other universities, have finished their exams. they are out of their misery, yours is only beginning. -_-"

my family is having a doa selamat and tahlil next week. odds are the ppl that read this blog are invited. if youre not, tell me. a person that reads my blog, should be invited, even though i may not know you very well. its kind of a big thing for me, this ceremony. for the most obvious reason, its a gathering to wish my parents well on their haji trip. 2ndly, bcoz, most of my friends in UTP havent been to my house, so for me to have a solid reason to invite them to come to my house is a good thing.

i really cant think of anything else worth writing now. guess ill stop here and continue some other time.

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november 6th, 3.27 am.

this shall probably be the last time i write in this particular post. afraid this post may be wee bit too long if i continue.

honestly, there really is nothing to write about today. apart from celebrating afiq's bday. which was nice i guess.

moving on, im nearing the 2nd half of my study week and i have barely done any studying at all. which is very bad... curse all these projects that need to be finished... why have these useless projects anyways? have i learned anything from them? okay, honestly, yes. one. i learned that if you wait long enough, you can copy somebody else's work. haha.what a waste of time...

and it spoils the study mood. you're supposed to be concentrating on your studies fully during the study week, but since you're swamped with work and other stuff, the concentration's gone. proof? some of the guys went out for bowling just now. and tomorrow, some are going for quantum of solace. (if you dont know what this is, you definitely arent a movie buff). by the way, although i never really was a fan of the bond series, but i definitely liked casino royale.. it was really nice! i am definitely looking forward to quantum of solace.

at this point, for my internship, i shall probably be going to johnson and johnson. yeah, the shampoo company. ive heard only good things bout the place, and the pays not bad. but some seniors have said that the workhours sometimes can be quite long. instead of going off at 5 30 pm for example, try 5 30 am. i kid u not. wow huh? but of course you'll get the next day off.. very interesting eh?

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I fell asleep.

november 6th, 1.13 pm.

due to falling asleep, i have forgotten what i was going to write down. but i did get some ideas after reading other ppls blogs. call it a realization if you will (and if there is such a word as realization)

there are so many blogs out there. really. so many. why? ive written some time ago about why ppl stop writing blogs, but never really why ppl start writing blogs..

do we crave the attention? do we need the interaction with other ppl so desperately that we post blogs for ppl to read and comment and go to sometimes extreme lengths to promote our blog? lets ponder about it for a moment. what do we really get when ppl read our blogs? when ppl post a comment?

sure, some of the super popular bloggers can really change the world with their blog (the chancellor of my university for example, che det), and some blogs that are popular enuf, they can have advertising to increase the balance in their pockets...

no. im not talking about these ppl. im talking about us. nobodies. (compared to che det, im definitely a nobody, and so are you, i think, unless ur che det and u've come to read my blog, then that makes me a somebody, coz che det is reading my blog... haha.) why do we write? we dont really have anything to benefit from it. yet we are excited when we spot the new comments on our blog. do we really care THAT much on what ppl think about us? are we really that lame? haha

uish. i should not have brought this up here. this topic on its own could cover one entire posting, and ive already written some stuff... i dont want my blog to be too long, now do i?

here's what i think, if it matters anyway. humans crave attention. we crave it on every level. we sometimes wear clothes that are attractive so that ppl will stare. we sumtimes talk to almost any stranger for no apparent reason than to fill the time or avoid an awkward moment. we bring our handphones everywhere, chat with absolute strangers in chatrooms, join social websites, forums, and last but most definitely not the least, hop from one blog to another and write our own blogs.

it is a way to be heard. blogs. when che det's thoughts couldnt get into mainstream media, he started blogging. and im guessing its the same for us. for every blogger.

blasted ppl keep popping into my room... nk tulis blog dgn aman pun susah..

i shall make it short then. ppl like attention. ppl want to be heard. blog is a way to be heard. some are so desperate for their voices to be heard, they promote their blog to extreme lengths (my opinion anyways, not necessarily true). because in the end, no matter how much we say we dont care, we really do care, if only a little, about what ppl think about us, and whether ppl give a damn about us or not.

so thats why i get happy or excited when i see new comments. there is someone out there that actually cares enuf to actually say something to what i have to say. haha. pathetic eh? i know. in the end, we are all pathetic ppl. haha. nobody can live alone.

and this concludes my experiment on this new style of blogging. i have to say, its been somewhat fun, no pressure to write so much in so little time. but somewhat tiring as well, as i need to face this blog thing for so many days, when i usually face it only once a month. how u guys manage to post so many in so short a time perplexes my timid mind. haha.

damn it, more ppl popping in! perlu ke masuk sini.. -_-" shuh2. stop lah cmni.

tk cr.

ciao~

raya n puasa.

yelah, yelah, aku update... lolz.

hello everyone.. slmt hari raya. maaf zahir n batin. halalkan makan minum. sekiranya ada hutang saya yang masih tak terbayar, sila lah ingatkan..

now that thats out of the way, i shall now talk about things i like about puasa n raya in random order. haha. what kind of introduction is this... -____-"

i like raya. it is the one time where everyone is so nice to each other, no one seems to be quarrelling, all arguments are put aside for that one day, and long lost friends pop up out of nowhere to visit you. you suddenly start talking to people you havent talked to in ages, and they too with you. you get to meet all your relatives (most, if not all), be it close or distant ones.. n o yea, did i mention you'll get loads of cash from your suddenly rich aunts and uncles..? hehe.

i used to look forward to raya so much when i was a kid. but now, it just feels like any other holiday. huhu. sad, i know, but its the truth. i dont really care bout the money i get anymore. the only thing i look forward to during raya is the long holiday and the chance to meet most of my relatives at the same time. huhu.

also, its kinda hard to get into the holiday spirit when there's tons of work to be done... i actually had nightmares of not submitting my assignments, not finishing my projects.. haihs. raya is just not the same anymore... i still like it, dont get me wrong, but its just not the same....

owh yeah, the thing i liked most bout this raya, is when my parents talked about when i was young. according to them, i didnt like to smile when i was a kid. haha. my dad told to me, "you were so grumpy, that when this one time you actually smiled to the bread-seller (i bought bread and other junk from this bread-seller almost everyday, fyi), he actually gave you free stuff because he was so happy to see you smile". lolz. when i smiled, i actually got free stuff. maybe my brain at that time stored that little bit of info, coz nowadays i smile almost all the time. i even smile when im in trouble (imagine the joker, but not as scary. haha) . my brain is subconciously trying to get me more free stuff. haha.

i laugh at my own jokes all the time eh? haha. i think its like the sitcoms. they add in the laughs to help make the show funnier. laughter is contagious. so when i laugh at my own jokes, hopefully you'll laugh at them as well. or laugh at me for being so pathetic. haha.

well that was one thing they told me about my childhood. there are other stuff, but i shall not write them here. want to know more, ask me personally. hehe.

erm, getting back to the topic of raya n puasa, apart from that, there was hardly anything special bout this raya. been there done that. huhu. im actually quite bummed because for this raya i couldnt meet most of my cousins and relatives. eh wait, i did meet most of them, but i didnt meet them all at once... i was with one family during the first day of raya, then they left to go somewhere else, and then another family came, and then they left and another family came... etc2. you get my drift. so of course i met most of my relatives, but its not as fun as meeting all of them together at the same time... huhu.

thats about it for raya. what about puasa... o yea, i had sahur with my eyes closed that one time. haha. and after finishing my plate of rice did i realise i had an extra lauk that i didnt see... haha. padan muka. malas sgt. but it was nice to be able to actually SLEEP before sahur. when i got home, my mum would wake me up for sahur. but in UTP, i was the one that was waking ppl up for sahur, most of the time anyways. i have problem waking up, as you all may have already known if youve been following my blog (lolz), so in order to be able to sahur, i usually dont sleep before sahur. i only sleep after sahur...

sometimes, if i were to accidentally fall asleep before sahur, my whole house would not be having sahur. haha. it happened on the last day i was in UTP before i went home for the raya holidays. since it was the last time we were going to have sahur together, my friends and i had planned to go out of UTP for sahur. BUT, most unfortunate, i fell asleep. i fell asleep, so nobody was awake. nobody was awake, therefore nobody woke up for sahur.... haha. funny eh?

so now you guys know why i skip my classes oh so often during the fasting month. at least its for a good reason rite? hehe. (alasan...)

oh yeah, one more thing i'd like to talk about puasa. i used to think that in the fasting month, i would be able to save some cash, since i wont be eating during the day. only after reaching raya did i realise how wrong i was... huhu. during puasa, i eat during sahur time, (which is around 4 am for me n my housemates in UTP), and during berbuka puasa. during non-fasting months, i eat during lunch and dinner time. so even though its puasa, i still eat the same number of time each day! haha. perhaps even more, because during sahur my brain is thinking "eat as much as you can! so that you wont starve to death during the day!". haha. and while breaking fast " eat as much as you can! you almost starved to death during the day, now is the time to recover!" haha.

what makes it worse is that, during puasa, you cant help but want something special to eat during berbuka puasa (break fast, not breakfast). during regular months, i only eat regular food, just to not go hungry, maybe occasionally ill go for something nice. but during fasting month.... huh. its as if i'll die if i dont eat delicious food.. haha. and of course, slightly more delicious food would cost slightly more. and dont get me started on the jamuan buffet berbuka puasa n etc2. haha. therefore, fasting month not equal to saving month. haha. i save better during regular months.

and thats all for now i think. overall, although its not the same as before, i still like raya n puasa. if i dont celebrate n enjoy raya n puasa, what else will i celebrate? when i think about it, its not all that bad. every year's celebration of raya n puasa is unique in its own way. 10 years from now, i'll probably look back to this year and say "those were the good ol' days..". hehe. and its true, isnt it? you have to agree with me on this one. if you look back to your raya celebration 10 years ago, you'd definitely say those days were the best raya you've ever had. i cant exactly remember what i was doing for raya when i was 9, but i know for sure, i enjoyed it a lot. :)

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"mawi dah kaya,

siti dah datin,

selamat hari raya,

maaf zahir dan batin."

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lolz.

cant help but laugh at my own jokes. double lolz.

dah la ni pun curi pantun org. triple lolz.

haha. what the fish.

>_<

thats all for now ppl.

take care. chows.

New Layout!?!

Wow.

who would've thought i'd actually update my layout?! haha. it was unplanned. i visited my own blog, (haha), just to check n see if anyone left any comments. and i saw that it was blue in color. erk. i dont recall it being blue before...

then i realised that friendster had new designs for its blog... probably realising that ppl do read blogs on friendster, they decide to spruce up the designs and all that, probably to keep up with the other blog websites. so, it automatically updated my old boring layout to a new clean-looking blue-colored layout.

which looked weird to me. haha.

so i browsed thru all the layout designs, before choosing this one. this one looks, relaxed. peaceful. calm. hehe. hope u guys like it.

erm, sumone commented to me that i am mixing english and bm too much, and i should start using proper english in my blog. again, i would like to remind everyone that this is not a place for you to learn english! haha. plus im not exactly the best person to be learning english from, as there are lots of blogs out there that have a very high level of english-ness (see how bad my english is.. huhu) to it. some are even written by englishmen (and women, of course) , so you would assume that their level of english is far greater than mine. hehe. im from malaysia, so i tend to speak a little manglish, though i try not to.

just thought id post something before i take my nap before sahur. oh yeah, its the fasting month, and my sleeping schedule is far from normal. even in normal conditions, some consider it to be abnormal, now.... its even worse. i find myself unable to wake up for morning classes nowadays. haha. big surprise there. which is not so funny anymore considering i promised my mom i would not skip anymore classes.... huhu. dont get me wrong, im not PURPOSELY skipping class, its just that sometimes i cant wake up from sleep, sometimes the lecturer organizes a boring adjunct lecture which has no relevance whatsoever to what is coming out in my tests and exams (i study for exams n tests, not knowledge. huhu), so you cant really blame me for skipping all these classes. huhu.

the number of assignments for this semester is astounding! its as if the lecturers are giving as much assignments as humanly possible before we, the 3rd year students go for internship! haha. imagine, one subject actually has 3 assignments in one week... if that isnt deliberately torturing students, i dont know what is. huhu. perhaps the lecturers think that the abundance of work they give us will actually HELP us in improving our grades. well, its not helping. the number of assignments given is not directly proportional to knowledge gained by a student. haha. its not. even without ANY assignments at all, a student can still excel in his/her studies if he/she wishes to and works to achieve it, and even with ALL the assignments in the world, a stubborn/ignorant student wouldn't gain a thing from all the work he/she has done, if he/she blindly finishes all the assignments without taking a second to understand what he/she is doing, i.e copying. hehe. with so many assignments to be handed in, one can only assume the regular students, such as myself, (or should i say the lazy students, haha), would be copying some, if not all of the assignments... in my humble opinion, lecturers shouldnt give too much assignments. give one per week, tops. that way, students will actually have the time to do the assignments themselves, and by doing so learn more about the task at hand, instead of having to skip class to copy an assignment that he was supposed to do days ago. lolz.

lets stop talking bout studies shall we? im sleepy enuf as it is. erm, i still havent got an internship placement. some friends have already gotten offers, and the number seems to grow by the day. im somewhat shaken, but overall im still optimistic that ill get a relatively good placement. i cant really expect the companies to come beg me to be their intern with an average cgpa.. huhu. some of the companies standards are so high, i dont even meet the minimum requirements to apply for intern, so i decided not to. ah, who cares. in the end, if i still dont get a placement, UTP will secure one for me, so nothing to worry about, really. its just that, obviously everyone has their own preference, where they want to work, what company they want to work with, and i myself am not excluded. but if its not meant to be, then so be it. lets not worry bout things that are uncertain. things will sort themselves out eventually. (slacker mode engaged.) haha.

erm, thats it for now, i think. oh yeah, ive got this one friend who apparently is grammar-crazy nowadays. haha. she deleted her entire blog, partly because she doesnt like all the grammar mistakes that she did. haha. i is not the knowing why she doing that thing, (please dont delete my blog. haha), but she should relax... haha. there's nothing wrong with using bad grammar in your blog. so long as you get your message out, and the blog-hoppers enjoy reading it, its all good... and this post is partly because she asked me to post sumthing. haha. i dont even know if this one is a good post, because im just rambling about random stuff. ill let you guys decide.

eyh, i really should get to sleeping. need to wake up for sahur coz it seems im the chef on duty for tonite. haha.

later.

chow.

my first 20th

hello everyone.

forgive me for not writing so long. its not that i dont have things to write about, i do. i dont know, maybe im not as dedicated to this blogging thingy as i thought. im not even sure i can be considered a blogger. other bloggers update their blog daily, sometimes several times in a day. i am barely able to pen out my thoughts once a month, which isn't very productive now, is it.. haha.

despite of the extremely long gaps between posts, i still have some ppl that read my blog... haha. dont you guys have better things to do? lolz. thanks for visiting. and again, sorry for not updating. this one's for you guys.

since im in the topic of blogs, lets talk about blogs, shall we. when i first started blogging, i often stated that i write only for myself, but if other ppl want to read my posts, its fine with me. then i started liking the comments, be it good or bad, and before you know it, i started writing the blog for other ppl. haha.

if you noticed, my style of writing has changed dramatically from the first post, to this one. i guess even writing styles evolve. in the beginning, i kinda stressed on writing with the correct grammar, correct spelling, a very formal blog if i do say so myself. nowadays... you'd be lucky if you could find one sentence in here that has proper grammar and proper sentence structure and also, a full sentence in english, as i am more and more drawn to manglish... haha. please dont use this blog as a guide to do your english assignment.. haha.

well, waddyaknow... (an example of bad english right here ladies and gents.. lolz). this is my 20th blog posting.. wieee. some ppl might be saying, "20? only 20? lame~". haha. yeah2, i know, but it must count for something right? who wouldve thought id reach 20 posts. im not even 20 years old yet. haha. xd kena mengena, i know. :P

what should i talk about this time? b4 sitting down, i had loads of ideas on what to write, n now, i cant seem to think of anything...  haish.

let's talk bout life then. it is the main theme of the blog, after all. life for me has been okay. i was the faci for my university's orientation. got to meet with the juniors and hopefully helped them settle into university life. passed down my 3 years worth of experience, which was my main objective of joining, so although the organising committee sucked bad, all sorts of things went wrong, it was a nice experience for me.

i joined a treasure hunt for the 1st time this semester. i did join the irc infohunt, but thats like very small-scale. and running around in the library looking for books cant really be considered an actual treasure hunt. haha. for this particular treasure hunt, we travelled a total of about 200 km. there was this one task, where you had to shoot the tin cans down, if you failed, you'd have to eat weird stuff. and my group, all of us being superb sharpshooters, manage to shoot down a grand total of ZERO (0) cans. lolz. so we had to eat the garlic, the asam jawa, the mengkudu, the cup of chilli (or is it chilly, lolz) and 2 raw eggs. wow. i ate the raw eggs. also a first time experience. haha. its not that bad actually. once you get over the thought that it is raw eggs, it doesnt taste that bad... huhu. all in all, it was a fun experience, it was my first REAL treasure hunt, and it was nice for me, i think the committee did a good job on this one. oh yeah, fyi, we didnt win, my team and i, haha. but we did have fun, and thats what matters most.

i also joined a paintball competition. wiee.. im trying all sorts of new stuff this semester. haha. maybe i should try studying instead of wasting time? hahah. actually for the paintball competition, i planned on joining last year, but due to unforeseen consequences, i couldnt. so i was excited to be able to join this year... and wouldn't you know it, my team got into the finals. haha. but we didnt win first place. we came in 2nd. hehe. nvmnd. to be able to go to the finals is good enuf rite? so dont be so hard on chong wei alrite? hehehe. oh yeah, i got shot 4 times in the tournament. huhu. twice in the chest, making me have a new red-coloured birthmark on my chest, once in the elbow, and one headshot.

im going for my internship in december. im not sure im actually looking forward to it, eh wait, i am, because during internship i wont have to study. haha. i applied to several companies, only one has replied, but im thinking that particular company replies to all non-petronas scholars' application. hehe. so im not that special. haha. im planning on going to sarawak, simply bcoz i like travelling. now at first, there were a few of us that wanted to go to sarawak, but one guy backed out, now suddenly everyone doesnt want to go sarawak, which to me sucks bad. but im not gonna change my plans just bcoz my friends are abandoning me.. kalau nak ikut kawan, smpy bila tak maju. so what the hell, if it is fated that i go to sarawak alone, fine by me. i dont mind. sarawak, here i come. hehe. oh ye, i just realised something. im going to be totally alone on my 20th birthday this year. crap. my parents are going for their haji end of this year, and they'll be gone before i go for my internship and also my birthday. which means ill be alone in a place thats completely alien to me, and ill probably be alone, with no friends or family, on that one day that i can truly say belongs to me, my birthday. *sigh*. c'est la vie...

what else is going on in my life... ah yes, it appears that there is an increase in the number of couples in my batch. apparently a lot of ppl have been bitten by the love bug, despite the regular fogging done in utp... huhu. my guess is some of the girls are getting desperate, but then again, when you fall in love, you cant really help it now can you. but what amazes me is how fast these ppl get back into a relationship after getting out of one. its as if they dont really mind who they're with, so long as they're with someone. i mean, would it kill you to wait for awhile, browse thru the choices, and taking your time to make the right choice?.. haih. biarlah kan, asalkan mereka bahagia sudah.. haha.

what else... what else... hehe. lets make this one the longest post ever. to celebrate the 20th posting. hehe. i myself am amazed that i was able to write 20 postings. oh yeah, etp. engineering team project. ppl from the 4 engineering courses group up and come up with an engineering project. my group came up with the magnetoboard. our project is very similar to the child's toy, where you can draw and doodle on the board without using any ink, and you can erase the writings as easily as you draw them. we intend on making an actual whiteboard based on those principles, to be used in classrooms and lecture halls. if it works, it would be a great invention, if i do say so myself, but so far, we've had nothing but setbacks.. but we've managed to overcome the obstacles so far, so pray that we are able to actually fabricate the protoype... huhu.

aha... here's another thing i can talk about here. people and their blogs. now, im all for promoting your own blog. whats a blog without the readers rite? but i tell ya, some ppl, the things they do to promote their blog.... putting your blog link in your gtalk / ym status is fine, but to pm every single person in ur friends list about ur blog... lame~ if ur blog is nice, ppl will visit ur blog even if u dont promote it or EVEN if u dont even update it for 2 months.. lolz. haha. but seriously, try not to go overboard in promoting your blog.

i think i should stop here... hehe. its gotten too long. huhu. i wonder how many ppl fell asleep to this. haha. maybe i should make this into a bedtime story.. once upon a time, there was a blogger named yasin... etc2... and he lived happily ever after. haha. thats all from me. take care. live life to the fullest. learn the ways of the slacker. chill. relax.

till next time, whenever that may be... lolz.

chow.