Ramblings of a madman 2

Is it my destiny to live out a normal life? To have nothing significant to be remembered by?

I look at the people in this factory, and they do the same thing day after day after day, as do I.

Should I perish today, would it be that hard to replace me?

Despite my best efforts, I'm still learning and it would take years for me to really prove myself.

Sometimes in life, we realize that although we try, we never really have any control over what happens. But that does not mean we won't try. Or that we shouldn't.

Life is tiring. And very repetitive. Sun goes up, sun goes down, moon comes up, moon comes down. Repeat.

I look at the people in this factory, and I wonder, do they not get bored of doing the same thing over and over again? How can they be so nonchalant about something that they're wasting their life with? Is there no passion at all?

Will I turn into them? A mindless drone that simply does as he is told.

Work is no fun. This I have learned. Experience is extremely important. Must have something to look forward to, to be motivated enough to wake up in the morning.

In a factory full of guys, the sight of girls is always a welcome sight.

A guy will always need a girl. No matter what the guy says. Doesn't have to be a boyfriend-girlfriend thing, just a girl to hang out with is good enough.

I don't really see her that way. Or maybe not yet. Haha. Probably shouldn't. Never a nice thing to fool around with people's girlfriends.

But sometimes not so nice things can be fun. Muahaha. Such an evil person.

But I do know I'm trying to be good. Still not there yet though. But I'm trying. That counts for something.

Its not easy for someone to be good. Its hard. But so long as we try to achieve the best we can, we're headed in the right direction.

Even if we mess up in the middle, its still ok.

I do not want to be a mindless drone. Nor do I want to be a drone with a mind, stuck somewhere I do not want to be, desperate for a change.

Must look for something to look forward to. Now I'm just living life one step at a time.

I'm afraid of making mistakes. But it is inevitable in the learning process. You learn better with mistakes. Must learn to be tougher when handling mistakes, and along the way, reduce frequency of occurance.

Is it important to have a career according to what you studied? Is it wrong to be a simpleton when you studied one of the supposedly toughest engineering course in the world?

Does the knowledge gained previously go to waste?

Technically speaking there's nothing wrong. A job is a job is a job. As long as it pays. If it doesn't, then that's volunteer work. haha.

But sometimes, the heart wants what it wants.

The heart is a weak organ. The heart that pumps blood is quite strong, but the heart that controls your emotions (figuratively speaking) is weak. It is easily swayed by outside opinion, more often than not uses completely illogical reasoning, BUT despite all this, we listen to it more than we listen to our brains.

Because supposedly the heart never lies.

But that doesn't mean the heart is always right. The heart is stupid. The brain is clever.

Perfect balance between both will set you on the right path.

Peace